Dua pasang mata hati

Mataku terus mencari, seakan menelanjangi semua yang hadir. Kadang muncul, kadang raib. Aku tau kalian disini. Saling mencuri pandang.. terpisah diantara kerumunan. Walau begitu, perasaan kalian tak terelakkan, tak kekang oleh ratusan onggok raga fana. Aku tau..

..and this song brought all the memories back.

Did you believe in songs? I mean, song, the melody of untold feelings. And I believe every people have their own song; it's just like soul, what make us alive. Told what our heart couldn't directly say..

And this is one of mine.

I try not to think about the pain I feel inside,
Do you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me, now seems so far away,
And it feels like you don't care anymore.

And now I try hard to make it,
I just wanna make you proud.
I'm never gonna be good for you.
I can't pretend that I'm alright..
And nothing's alright.

'Cause we've lost it all,
Nothing lasts forever,
Sorry I can't be perfect.
Now it just to late,
And we can't go back,
I'm sorry I can't be perfect.

Nothing’s gonna change the things that you said..
Nothing’s gonna make this right again.
Please don’t turn your back,
I can’t believe it’s hard just to talk to you,
But you don’t understand..

This. Just.
...too deep.

I can't help but tears streaming down my face. The scars barely open, all the memories start to roll over right in front of my eyes. But somehow, I smiled. Just to let you know, I'm okay. Right here, right now.
Its not about you, not me, not us. Its just about the memories, what we've done and through. I won't blame the time, gone pity myself and regret the past. I, finally, can let this go. This is the way it should be. 
And on everything, for taking part in my life... I thank thee.


Btw, do you spot the difference in the second paragraph? I change it because for me, it suits me that way. :)